Why. why. why.

This is supposed to be a post about college. It might have a little bit to do with college. But not much. 

Why. why. why. why. why. 

Why must I care about people? Why. Are we born to care? Is there genetic code inside of me to have a caring instinct? For the longest time I always thought it was because I wanted people to like me. I wanted to be accepted so I had to let people know that I cared about them. I don't think it is the case anymore. I honestly care and I HATE IT. What does it do for me? not much

But I will probably continue doing it. I will continue getting hurt. People say they can't get close to me because I am moving to college?? Bullshit. I am here for a long time and thats a pathetic excuse. And so what if I do move out of state (and hopefully I do)? Its not like you care anyways. 

I don't want you hurt or unsafe or in a bad place or hurt. Any of you. I will always care. I just dont want to. 

Sincerely, 

Spence

I died for a second there.

Where the heck did the time go?? 

Life really has been Su-Spenceful lately. A lot of things have happened since my last post. Obviously. lets just catch you all up (I'm sure you really care.)

-I was Cast in the Drowsy Chaperone at Centerpoint Legacy Theatre (We opened in March 2012.) Remarkable show and ever more remarkable cast. Met some people that literally changed my life :) 

-My sister came home from her mission.. Super weird. She wasn't out for the entire time because of some medical snaf-oos. Having her home was amazing. Literally she came home at the perfect time. I missed her... and now she is getting married. (7 days people). 

-I got the great opportunity to choreograph a show for my high school. An ENTIRE musical. like 20 numbers or something like that... (by the end there were a LOT of kick ball changes...). It was amazing to have a vision and get to see it come to fruition on stage. I can't wait until I get to do it on Broadway (Anything Goes 2023 revival anyone??). 

-This summer was cray-cray. Went to the International Thespian Festival in good ole Lincoln, Nebraska and ooh what a trip. met lots of peeps, got lots of phone numbers. A lot of phone numbers ;). Also won a national marketing award, 1st place in Theatre Marketing. 

After that we went to NYC as a family. Had a great time. Saw six shows (thats acceptable haha) and had some great bonding time. Oh and guess what!!! We sure needed some bonding time I guess because we left the country together for 17 days. In July, we parted for the land of the kangaroo. What a great country and an amazing trip :) 

- When we got home from Aussie, I came up with a BRILLIANT Idea (as usual). I decided I wanted to transfer schools. I decided I wanted to pretty much move out of Erda and move to Salt Lake.... So then SPA happened. Salt Lake School for the Performing Arts. Best. Decision. Ever.. 

-Moving to SPA helped me solidify my after High school plans. Musical Theatre education here I come.. (More to come tomorrow about this one specifically.)

Mixed in there were some tears, many new friends, losing some people, lots of dates and lots of flings. It has been an amazing time... Hold on for the ride!

Sincerely, 

Spence