Why. why. why.

This is supposed to be a post about college. It might have a little bit to do with college. But not much. 

Why. why. why. why. why. 

Why must I care about people? Why. Are we born to care? Is there genetic code inside of me to have a caring instinct? For the longest time I always thought it was because I wanted people to like me. I wanted to be accepted so I had to let people know that I cared about them. I don't think it is the case anymore. I honestly care and I HATE IT. What does it do for me? not much

But I will probably continue doing it. I will continue getting hurt. People say they can't get close to me because I am moving to college?? Bullshit. I am here for a long time and thats a pathetic excuse. And so what if I do move out of state (and hopefully I do)? Its not like you care anyways. 

I don't want you hurt or unsafe or in a bad place or hurt. Any of you. I will always care. I just dont want to. 

Sincerely, 

Spence